Seems like many, many years ago I started a blog—and it was. Back in 2008, I was talking to a patient who asked me who Dr. Lisa turns to when she is not in the office practicing.
The question caught me off guard.
As the days progressed, I continued to ponder the question. Who do I turn to?
I am me first, and then Dr. Lisa
Sometimes patients see me as this block of confidence sitting in a perfect world—and this is not quite true. I am human first, and then Dr. Lisa. Yes, true, I spend a good deal of my life working with patients with eating disorders and mood disorders and everything in between, but I’m still Lisa first.
And, when I am not listening in my office, I am teaching at a university. When I am not teaching or practicing, I am working on revising my newest book.
In 2008, when the patient asked me who I turn to in times of trouble, it stunned me as I’d never thought about who I turn to. At the time, I morphed my dissertation from my doctoral program for the public audience to a nonfiction self-help book, Release Your Obsession with Food: Heal from the Inside Out, a spiritual recovery from food addiction.
Who knew I’d keep writing. From there blossomed my obsession series of which to date there are four, plus a boxset, with a fifth book to launch sometime late September, as I ring in another birthday.
I realized each book I wrote was a healing process for me. Ahh, perhaps I turn to my writing…
It’s a long journey…
It is a lifelong journey for me as well.
Although I devoted my life to helping others, I feel like I am in a balanced and centered place. I am human first. So, why was the patient’s question, “Who does Dr. Lisa turn to?” still linger?
It always goes back to I must remember I am me first.
Once there was a time I struggled with my weight (100 pounds to be exact) and I had nowhere to turn. I didn’t understand why my eating was so out of control.
How could I weigh 135 pounds one moment and then 234 the next? Up and down with my weight… from 20 pounds to 100 pounds, back up to 50 pounds, down 20… and on and on it would go.
Until one day something clicked and I got it. To date, I have released 100 pounds and have maintained this loss for years and years.
Yes, I keep a “normal” weight, and cravings disappeared. It appeared as though I was in a good place.
With that said, make no mistake, I am human first and definitely not out of the woods. It is a daily journey. Yes, it’s true I don’t eat sugar, flour, and wheat, and it appears I am skipping along just fine. And mostly, I am.
But…in all honesty, I have my days where I wish I could be like everyone (who ever that might be!) else. I wish to eat a chocolate bar, or a piece of cake, or something indulgent.
But… the fact of the matter is, I am a food addict. There… I said it. The doc is a food addict.
What does that mean?
It means I have a chemical imbalance. If I eat certain foods, I cannot stop eating. I do not have a thermostat that shows I am full. I will eat and eat… and yes, eat some more. I don’t know how to eat a piece of cake, only the entire cake and then some.
So back to the question, who do I turn to when I am not working in my practice? I could not find one simple answer.
The saying, “it takes a village to raise a child” fits nicely. It takes a village to keep me clear and balanced. I built my village around God, my twelve-step program, my sponsor, my walks, prayer, meditation, my patients, my students, my family, and my old fashion personal journal I’ve kept since the age of 13.
I turn to my blog…
I think of my blog as one long journal of ideas… never knowing where my mind will wander.
As I pondered my village, I thought about how great it would be to share my journal with anyone out there feeling they had nobody to turn to when they wanted to eat…or not. So, Voila! My first blog was born in 2008! And it all became so because of one patient who asked me who I turn to in my troubles.
I turn to you…
I share my day-to-day life with you. I want to hear about your day-to-day life. You are not alone… and now I am not alone.
I have my anchors: God, nature, prayer, meditation, my sponsor, a twelve-step program, my personal journal, and now you. Thank you!
Who do you turn to in times of trouble? Who comprises your village? What does your self-care look like? Do you find you can power through life on a solo journey? How’s that working for you?
I’d love to hear your thoughts. Please scroll down and share…
Next week stop by to explore another topic on obsession from my obsession series.
Thank you for being a part of the reading blog forum of this blog. YOU are important to me. If you have something you’d like to say, I’d love to hear it. YOU are important and your words need to be heard. If there was something you think I should have added, I’m here and want to hear what you have to say…
To learn more on recovery from food addiction, eating disorders, weight issues, dieting, and aging, please check out my Release Your Obsession Series.
Stay tuned…you never know where my mind will wander…
And now my newest release:
Speaker, writer, licensed clinical psychotherapist, PhD in addiction psychology, eating disorder professional, hypnotherapist changing the view about compulsive eating one addict at a time.