When one realizes one is asleep, at that moment one is already half-awake.
Today, I was walking along the shoreline of the Atlantic Ocean in sunny South Florida. I felt an enormous gratitude! Here I am in the most beautiful setting, while others are freezing somewhere out there.
I was recently in Chicago when it was 26 degrees below zero! My face almost fell off! And now…here I am walking along the beach with the temperature nearing 80 degrees. How great is that!
Today I witnessed many cloaked in little tiny bathing suits knowing somewhere out there (Chicago!) there are many bundled up in their multi-layered clothing.
Are You SAD?
As I was walking, I was wondering how I could keep my exercise intact if I lived up north. Here in Florida, my goal is to exercise 6 out of 7 days a week. While in Chicago, I could not meet my goal. As I along the shoreline, with seagulls keeping me company, I wonder how others are living in a cold climate. As I pondered this thought’m walking, I went back to when I lived in Chicago.
Around this exact time of the year (mid-January), after the holiday festivities came to a halt, and my body was up a good 30 pounds from eating from Halloween until my New Year resolution, I would fall into a deep depression until April when the sun resurfaced and the pale gray slated skies disappeared. Some would call it Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). Perhaps they were correct.
I don’t have those “dark” days here in sunny Florida like I did when I lived up north.
It was one winter back in January 1986, standing on the platform waiting for the El train, when I decided no longer would I give in to another winter of cold.
It was a cold and blistery day.
I decided out loud that I had enough… I was moving to Hollywood (Florida, that is!). And in May 1986, off to Florida, I went and never looked back.
The Weight Yo Yo
Often in my history, my weight would fluctuate 100 pounds up and down. My last year living in Chicago was one of those times where I could control my weight. Although my eating disorder was flourishing even then, I could hide it (weight wise) because I was doing so much walking living in the city. Although I did not exercise regularly because of the cold, I was walking to catch a bus or a train every day several times. In addition, I was taking the stairs (at De Paul University) rather than the elevators. I was trying to eat clean mostly and then would succumb to a binge on the weekends. Back then, I did not know about food addiction. I thought I was weak-willed, and that I did not know how to “do it right.” Now, of course, I know differently.
Today, I know I am a food addict and there is no cure for food addiction, only recovery. I work on my recovery every single day, whether I am here or in Chicago, or at my little beach home on the west coast. Eating sugar, flour, and wheat is not an option. Not exercising for long periods of time is not an option. Today, as I walked along the shoreline of the Atlantic Ocean, I smiled on the inside and the outside all at the same time. I suppose onlookers might have thought I was a bit “touched,” but I did not give it a care. I am free of food addictive behavior. My weight is “normal,” and I feel spiritually balanced. All worth my efforts of vigilantly working on my program.
Some say they could not eat the way I do, or exercise regularly; but, I say it beats being in Chicago, freezing my you know what off and wearing an extra 100 pounds. Today, life is centered and balanced for me. How about you? Is your life centered and balanced? How do you work on your exercise program in the winter? Are you still pumped from your New Year’s resolution? I want to hear from you!
Do you notice you get depressed at certain times of the year? Do you feel upbeat when it’s bright out? When was the last time you noticed a shift in your mood? We’d love to hear your experience, as one who suffered from SAD personally.
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